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Ragged Nails: A Post about Artist Insecurities

Merry Christmas Eve!  I hope your holidays are bright!!!


     My contest entry has been in Rooglewood's hands for 5 days.  My mental status has gone from the over-the-top excited and relieved when I first submitted it...to a steady optimism that my story actually might have a decent chance this year...to a closed-off state where I was convinced that I didn't even need to worry about it until next April...to today.

     Today I am tore up with the certain feeling of my stories significant and amateur flaws.  Who would read this?  How can this compare to the other amazing authors chosen by Rooglewood?  What was I thinking to submit such a meager tale?

     I do this every year.  And it is a passing feeling. I know it is.  The artist cycle is something I've talked about before on this blog.  It helps to know that this is normal and that I will be excited about my story again tomorrow.

    But, oh, those other authors are so intimidating!

    How are you guys holding up?  Still feeling confident?  Having some emotional ups and downs?  Do share!  What do you do to keep from chewing your nails ragged while your story is traveling through the judges?


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  1. You have no reason to worry, Esther! Your story was beautiful, deep, and layered. You are one of those intimidating authors to me. I can't see them not picking yours.

    I am still freaking out myself.

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  2. You don't need to worry either, Skye. Your story is going to impress some judges for sure.
    But, yes,... Yay for freaking out together. Here's some confetti for the occasion! :/ :D Only 86 more days of suspense!
    You are awesome, Skye. <3

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  3. You're story is a winner. I was AMAZED by it. Personally, I would read your story over and over again. You have no reason to fret

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    1. Thank you, Amanda -- your feedback meant so much to me!

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